‘I have made you too small in my eyes, oh Lord, forgive me.
And I have believed in a lie, that you were unable to save me…’

The first lines of a song that speaks to my heart everytime I hear it.

I got a call today from someone I own money.  I gave them a cheque which should have been banked today but they were gracious enough to heed my request and not bank it before consulting.  A good thing too because there is no money in that account today.  I needed to make good on that cheque so it felt really bad not being able to, the circumstances notwithstanding.  I felt alone and helpless.

If I really believed God can do anything for me and that He is in control I probably would have handled that differently.  As it is, I still feel down.

Doesn’t change the fact that He is in control though.

I’d probably have walked with my head held a little higher rather than with my eyes to the ground and a look of utter dejection.

Lord, be made big in my eyes.  Oh that I may see you more than I see my successes or my failures.