Every child is different. Some children sit in a corner and play quietly whilst their siblings run wild around the house bringing destruction and bills in their wake. Some parents will tell you that the latter type are the most energy-sapping to raise because you are constantly fixing tears, broken furniture and spending evenings at the local A&E.

Spiritually, I think it’s the same. There are those of us that God can count on to be organized and get the business of the Kingdom done. Then there’s me. I keep Him constantly on His toes. No sooner has he tended to one problem than I am upping the ante on another. If He was a man, He’d have traded me in for a hamster long ago.

Over the past years I have come to see myself as a spiritual goof ball who almost always never has his act straight. God is always getting me out of trouble and I am constantly relying on Him to deliver me from them (my troubles that is). The term ‘magnify’ has very personal meaning for me. When we sing ‘Be magnified oh Lord’, for me it means ‘Lord I fill my vision with you, I make you big in my eyes. Bigger than my failures, my current troubles or my successes.’ I choose to make Him big in my eyes and to recognize that none of my issues are too big for Him. He is not so small as to be bewildered by my antics. He has everything under control.

I am comforted that I have my eyes (and my hopes) cast on Him I am even more comforted by the fact that He has His eyes on me. He sees me when I fall, when I rise, when I fail, when I succeed. He watches my back even when I don’t have the sense to watch what I was getting myself into.

Will this ever change? I think not. It is highly likely that I will keep heaven very very busy for the next of my life. I have a deal with God. Since I don’t have any plan to grow eyes at the back of my head, He will watch my back for me. I like it that way, although its not always comfortable. And I do get the odd look from believers with some insight into the troubles that plague me. It is true, the troubles of the righteous man are many, but the Lord delivers him from them all.